~Spanking new hairdo~

heres me with my spanking new hairdo.. well.. the cut is almost the same.. just a lil trim.. was reallie considering cutting short.. and when i say short.. i mean like boy cut.. but then got discouraged.. ahahah.. couldnt decide.. at the end while i was sitting there..i just smsed a fren n went with wat they decided.. kekeke.. love having someone else decide stuff for me.. =p
redid my highlites as well.. like the red colour.. =)) im happy with it all!!thanks to daddy(and the wonders of a credit card) for footing the bill that i couldnt have afforded after the bag! =)

~Would You Dance~

would you dance.. if the only music is my heart beating.. if the stark sun gives no relief.. would you dance.. if im hopeless at it and tread on your toes.. if people point and laugh.. would you dance.. if i wasnt the prettiest girl in the room.. if i asked you to..

would you dance with me?

~Home Sweet Home~

im home.. =) made it safely home (for anyone who cares! =P) flight was pretty alrite.. very full flight.. but i was so tired that i think i KO-ed for about 2 hours.. watched 'Raising Helen' which is a sweet feel good movie.. (yes.. i did cry).. 'Godsend' was okie.. missed the begining but got the gist of the movie.. n just saw bits n pieces of other movies.. too tired to reallie concentrate.. went wondering ard Sg airport coz had a 2 hour wait between flights.. bought lotsa yummy peanut butter M&Ms.. (its actual peanut butter.. not just peanut.. *drool*)..at the end just decided to go sit at the gate n read my story book.. (everything was so exp! =\)
mom was waiting for me at the airport.. =) its alwiz a joy to see a familiar face.. tats y i alwiz try to make an effort to go meet ppl arriving at the airport.. (unless its like 6am in the morning.. coz i would have to wake up an hour earlier n sit a bus that takes like 40 mins!!)..
ahh.. well.. its fantastic to be back.. (besides the comments about how i can afford to lose some weight *wrinkles nose*.. i KNOW!! im TRYING!! *sheeesh*) i know they love me and mean well.. but its grating on the nerves sometimes.. i am reallie tryinggg.. its not like im this couch potato that sits down n junks all the time..=\esssh!
anyway.. back to happier thoughts(think only happy thoughts!).. natalie is ADORABLEEEEEEEEE.. *gushhhhh* only saw her once tho.. =\ but shes soooo cute!! heard that she can be quite the spoilt little monster tho.. kekeke.. but shes CUTEEEEEe.. will take lotsa lotsa photos n show u guys.. *proud auntie look*..
havent been doing much so far.. spending time with family.. (which means meals n shopping!!) hahaha.. everyone in my family goes shopping cept my dad!! bought a bag that cost me almost all my allowance.. =\ but its a very nice white calf leather bag.. took me the better half of 40 mins trying to decide.. (my allowance?.. white?.. worth it?..nice soft leather! ) but at the end.. it was so pretty i coudnt resist.. and there was a special offer as well.. got a 20% discount! (main factor that persuaded me in the first place! w/o i wont even consider!).. and no.. its not LV.. anything from there would take many many times my allowance! with my allowance.. mite be able to afford a keyring maybe?!
alrite.. i think this entry is long enuff to bore anyone.. hahaha.. having trouble with this stoopid keyboard as well.. =p if anyone wants anything from here.. drop me a line k? i'll try.. =P

~HOME~

in about 3 hours.. i will onboard a plane.. heading home.. home sweet home.. a place of refuge.. a place love.. a place of laughter n joy(most of the time.. unless someone did something wrong..) a place where i know i'll be loved unconditionally..

sometimes i think i care more than i should.. sometimes i think i miss more than im allowed..

oh.. dinner was with mel, yinfu, eelyn, anna and jan.. i was pretty stoned the first half of it coz i just got back from my quiz n my brain was alredi totally dried out.. so there while eating.. there was too much silence for my liking! however after food i did start some pretty interesting topics that got the conversation going!! =P haha.. its good to meet up with old frenz.. especially those that you have to plan way in advance for any outing! *wrinkles nose* ppl nowadays!! tend to neglect their friends (ie ME).. *sniff sniff*

~Typical day of a student~

today i had one of those typical student days.. ones where ur up to 3 plus in the morning doing research and where u wake up 2 hours before class.. try to cram some information in (for quiz at 5).. realise you only have 20 mins to class.. quickly change and run(or walk extremely quickly) to class.. only to realise that today is surprise QUIZ day in class as well.. joy oh joy.. the only week you had no time to read the tutorial material (which is wat the quiz is based on).. luckily.. relying on common sense and bullshitting..i think i managed a 2/5(i HOPE!).. better than nothing i guess.. after class.. off to library to do more research.. managed to get a pile of about 4 books to bring back home (to mal) with me.. weight that i alredi cannot afford in my luggage!.. come home.. heat up remains of last nite for lunch.. then try to cram somemore.. only to find myself nodding off.. so decide to take a 15 min nap.. set the alarm n went to bed(new phone doesent have a timer! *wrinkles nose*).. woke up.. only to realise that i did not change the alarm thing from am to pm.. !! luckily only slept for 25 mins in total.. (too worried i think cannot sleep properly!).. cram somemore and off to exam.. (which thank god was pretty alrite).. rush home.. photocopy some research to bring home (while the shop is preparing to close for the day).. then off to dinner with frenz.. (FINALLY something FUN!).. come home.. sit in front of the comp for the total of 6 over hours to come up with a 2200 word paper full of gibberish that doesent even make sense to me..

now its 5.30am in the morning.. taking a break before i start packing my luggage and clean the mess that my hall has become.. flight leaves at 11plus(cant remember wat time exactly) but i know that i have to leave my place by 920..

ahhh.. the joys of student life!!

[note] it is irrelevant that the assignment for the paper was handed out a few weeks ago.. students do not start work till the last minute!! (especially this one who likes to kill herself with anxiety and bursts of too much work n lack of sleep)

~Some Days~

some days i feel like i can overcome any obstacles life throws me.. i have a purpose to things and i feel invincible.. nothing can get me down.. in other words i would have a very optimistic view on everything..

on other days.. i just feel.. lost.. i wonder what my role in life is.. whether im making a mark.. a difference.. i wander aimlessly with no direction or goal.. i worry incessantly.. i dwell on mistakes.. i feel incomplete.. emotions are bubbling on the surface.. too many to distinguish.. too strong to ignore.. on days like this i feel the loss of strongly.. the 'what if's'.. the 'might haves' of my life.. in short i plague myself with needless worries and emotions that are better left untouched..

on days like this i wish i could hide in bed under my doona and pretend the world is that wonderful surreal place that only appears in my dreams..

~The Short and Long of It~

put up a new poll.. keke.. nothing exciting.. fingers feeling itchy.. thinking of cutting my hair.. so wanna see wat ppl think.. =)
in case anyone is wondering wat i look with short hair.. that would be anyone who knew me from 1st yr uni onwards.. this is kinda wat i looked like.. (photo actually taken for my foundation year student id).. colours abit grainy since i took a pic of it with my phone (wonders of technology yes?



prior to coming here.. i've alwiz had sorta shortish hair.. i think this is the longest my hair has been.. thought of cutting it all off a few times.. but alwiz manage to be discouraged.. keke.. oh well.. vote vote ya!! thanks!

~GO anyone?~

Mark tried to teach me how to play Go on thursday nite.. keke.. hes been raving on and on about it so i decided to give it a whirl.. bet alot of u are wondering .. what the heck is go?
"Go is a fascinating board game that originated in China more than 4,000 years ago. Also known as baduk, wei ch'i, weiqi, and igo"
its this game with black n white stones and trying to gain territories and prevent your oppenent from doing the same.. its played on a ruled board.. its abit like "kepong" or "conquer" the game i used to play in skool with the maths exercise book.. but more complicated!

anyway.. it hink i used more of my brain power in that one n a half hour than the whole 2 days.. haha.. (shows how much i think huh?). haha.. and i bet you.. i'll ferget half of it before i meet mark again!! =P goldfish memory n concentration i say!

ohhh.. before that.. in the afternoon before class i went shopping in Eastgardens!! =)) (its a shopping mall nearby..) there were some sales going on.. guess wat i ended up with!! BOOKS!! yeah yeah!! hahaha.. wat a nerd rite?? ohh.. i did get more of those cute boxers that i so love.. only 4 bux!! so exciting.. =P

~Movie Nite!~

had a mini movie nite at my place today.. it was a pity that safa and john couldnt stay back.. =\ but 3 of us had fun playing scrabble in the evening.. keke.. =) then nick trish steve n vicki came over n we all went for dinner.. john n safa had to leave after dinner =\ but daryl joined us.. initially the guys picked this weird looking korean movie which i flat out refused to watch.. (cant even remember wat it was called).. at the end i picked 'big fish' and daryl picked 'musa'.. we ended up watching musa.. which is this korean/chinese movie.. its one of those movies set in the olden days (way old) and the tribes in china are at war.. some spoilt little ming princess (zhang zi-yi) being kidnapped and pursued.. then some korean envoys that are taken prisoners but escape and save zi princess (general has a thing for the princess).. and the kidnappers getting reallie pissed off and trying to kill everyone that stands in the way.. and this slave that is brave n honourable (n has a thing for the princess) and gets himself killed at the end.. basically one of those gory kill kill die die for honour n all.. i can take horror (some) n all.. but i hate watching innocent ppl get slaughtered.. (one of the reasons why i refuse to read about the war n all di) turned away a few times.. not in the mood to watch all the blood.. alredi emotions running haywire.. no need to add to them.. especially if its hacking and slashing with axe n sword..
i guess the movie was alrite.. just wasnt reallie in the mood for all the blood.. haha.. no.. im not one of those that cant take blood.. anyone that knows me well enuff knows that.. i sat thru chainsaw massacre without turning away.. but thats different somehow.. or maybe i need to be in a mood?! i dunnooo..

~Feeling of Neediness~

been feeling a lil needy recently..(blame it on female hormone cycle shit) the need for affection slightly more conspicuous than normal.. the need for friendly interactions, hugz stronger.. its pathetic.. its like i need to reassure myself that i mean something.. that im not just some walking talking(crapping) human blob.. *wrinkles nose*..

~Birthday Wishes~

21 years ago.. a lil baby boy was born.. who knew that this lil baby boy would turn out to be one of the biggest crapper i've ever known.. hahaha.. yes.. Mr YuJin Wan turns 21 today.. but i bet he will still keep the "i'm an 18 year old studying nursing" story going on.. hahaha.. happy birthday dear! *HuGz*

~Tired~

after a 4 day weekend.. going for a full day of skool can be extremely tiring.. i know i know.. i should not even be complaining as i do after all have a 4 day weekend.. =P but still.. doesent help that tues is my fullest day as well.. but thank god im done with multimedia.. or i would still be at uni!! and then.. still have to think of doing stoopid IT Mgt tute work for tomolo.. *grumble mumble* i can hardly keep my eyes open at the moment.. waiting to go for dinner.. chung keat's mom is around and she invited us all for dinner at the lil italian restaurant downstairs.. i actually pretty like that place.. giovanna's i think.. they make pastas by request.. so i can have any sauce i wan! YUM.. =)

hmm.. lets see.. i think theres OC and CSI on tonite at 830.. tough decision.. i love CSI.. but OC is one of those brainless sitcoms (like Beverly Hills 90210.. anyone remember that?!).. nah.. most prob end up watching CSI.. IF its the new ones.. they have been showing reruns lately!

oh.. ate lunch all alone at uni today.. *sniff sniff* nic skipped the morning lect.. and i had an hour to kill before meeting john safa n nic to discuss our lab.. john n safa had a lect and everyone else seemed busy.. so this pathetic lil fella here just had nothing to do.. so ended up doing some research for IT law.. luckily i brought a sandwich.. n a story book.. keke.. so ended up sitting on a bench eating n reading.. =P need to make more frenz in uni!!

oh well.. babbling again.. this is wat happens when im tired/hungry.. come tot hink of it.. doesent it happen all the time?! =P

~Entertaining Read~

read a thoroughly entertaining and funnee book today.. was a mistake to pick up the book this morning.. was supposed to be doing research for my skool work.. but ended up with my nose in 'undead and unwed'.. keke.. i know.. i love reading brainless fluff sometimes.. i think i strained my eyes abit today! *wrinkles nose*.. anyway.. the book is hilarious.. its about this extremely blonde (sorry anyone out that whos naturally blonde n reading this) chick that ends up a vampire n is supposed to be the next Queen of the undead.. and all she wants to worry about are her friends and the latest Manolos(killer exp shoes), guccis or any other expensive shoes u can think of.. haha.. think Clueless..(which i loved as well!).. she even has a rich black friend and makes a gay friend.. haha..

hmm.. i think that as much as i would like to deny it.. i can be quite bimbo sometimes.. okie.. maybe more than sometimes.. =p but its one of my endearing qualities.. rite?! rite? (I HOPE) *pout*.. hahaha.. i dunno.. sometimes my brain just shuts down.. (it needs its breaks now n then u know).. i know some ppl think that im a total bimbo.. =P n i dont try to change that!! hahahah.. sometimes i reallie do wonder whether my brain is filled with fluff.. kekeke.. that im actually a total bimbo and the rest of the times(where i dont seem like one) are just flukes.. *interesting thought*

~Troubled Sleep~

i seem to have problems getting a good nites sleep.. almost every morning i'll wake up at bout 7 plus.. i'll look at the time n go back to sleep.. then i'll wake up again around 9 plus.. n the same thing happens around 10-11.. sheesh.. if u know me well enuff u know im no morning person.. i enjoy sleeping at a late hour n waking up at a decent hour.. i've alredi altered my sleeping time at nite.. instead of the usual 3-4ams.. i know usually go to bed round 2 -3.. one hour earlier is better than nothing! =P.. as my classes usually dont start till 12.. it wont be prudent to say that i would like to sleep till 10 rite? *wrinkles nose* plus.. all this 'wake sleep wake sleep' makes me feel more tired sometimes.. coz after waking up the first time.. im only dozing.. and gives me kickassed dreams.. cant reallie remember wat they are.. but so far i dont think only of them have been extremely pleasant =\.. i remember i had one where things were beyond my control.. n i HATE being out of control.. essssssh!

~Things not to do on a Friday nite~

note to self..
if shi yun n self are bored on a friday nite.. GO OUT N DO SOMETHING!! staying at home while plotting to make travis tipsy can be dangerous!! Especially if u let travis mix the drinks! and never buy midori again!

im serious.. the midori he mixed.. tasted like cough mixture.. *wrinkles nose* definately no career in bartending.. and guess who kept losing.. yes yes.. urs truly *bows* we dint drink alot.. but then the concoction (however u spell that) that travis mixed.. eeeyuu.. drinking that alone can make u feel like throwing up.. EeeeeEyuuu..

oh well.. it was funnee tho.. even tho i knew that yun wasnt tipsy.. we could hardly make sense of wat she was talking about.. hahaha..

okie.. time for bed..!! =)

~Multimedia.. done and over!~

finally.. its over!! i've officially completed multimedia design!! it wasnt a bad subject.. it was just.. Dry.. the lecturer is only taking this subject for one semester while the normal lecturer is away (or something like that).. so basically shes just using watever resources (ie lect notes n stuff).. and lecturers were tues 5-7 n basically was her just skimming thru the lecture slides.. adding stuff occasionally.. the labs were basically group meetings (we had to prepare a prototype presentation/system titled 'why take IS') overall.. i guess its okie.. just abit boring.. but only 3 units.. so ends week 7.. had the exam on monday.. i tot it was pretty okay.. but ended up with only 39/60.. the highest mark is 47.. =\ but the lecturer said that there will definately be scaling.. (BETTER BE!) .. the presentation went pretty well.. (not that i did much!! *embarrassed look*) we got a D(kinda.. but dunno marks yet).. thanks to john's n puspa's good work!! *tumbs up!* oh.. n nic's videos! haha.. but the sucky thing was.. remember the lousy groupmate i was talking about last time? well.. she took this subject.. n managed to end up in a group that got the highest mark for the presentation.. HD!! bloody hell.. john was VERY upset over it.. keke.. coz we all know that it wasnt her work.. but somehow.. she has all the luck n gets in a group that does the work.. n she did pretty well in the exam as well(i sneaked a look at her marks) HIGHER THAN ME!! *fume fume* not much.. BUT STILL! its reallie unfair sometimes.. she blatantly doesent do work but yet.. alwiz gets in good groups!! sheesh!! and she has fantastic memory.. she memorizes almost everything!! *wrinkles nose*..
oh well.. anyway.. multimedia is officially over now.. can concentrate on other stuff..wat other stuff u ask?*raised eyebrow* kekeke..

hmm.. had trouble posting the previous post! it just refused to upload yesterday! so FRUST! Humph!

~The World~

Much as i would like to keep my blog free from worries of the world, i cant help but feel sad and disgusted at whats happening to the world.. the war.. the hostage situation.. the kidnappings.. everytime i open my time magazine.. there most definately will be at least one article on the war in iraq.. i used to read the mag from cover to cover.. but nowadays i find that i skip most of the war bits.. call me ignorant or living in self denial.. sometimes i just dont wanna know anymore.. i only wanna know when it ends.. when ALL The troops stationed there can return home.. just visited CNN website.. n the death toll is alredi 1000.. n i think they only meant US soldiers.. wat about allt he other innocent ppl that died.. the children.. do u think given a choice they want to be there? i beliff that alot of ppl were just at the wrong place at the wrong time..
and recently.. the hostage situation at the russian skool.. its estimated that a 1500 ppl are being held hostage.. did anyone stop to think that thats more then the death toll for US soldiers? and most of them are KIDS.. i dont see why more help isnt provided in getting those children to safety.. alreadi its estimated 300+ have been killed.. and i seriously think that they are playing it down.. its sad.. i pray.. i reallie pray.. that my kids will never never have to live in a world thats as cruel and curropt as it is now.. fat hopes tho..

~Work work~

its been quite a hectic weekend.. well.. not exactly the weekend but the pass few days.. on thurs nite rushed an assignment worth a freaking FIVE percent.. my part was only worth 1% btw.. but yeah.. all of us stayed up till like 3 doing it.. (i know i know.. should have started earlier rite?) but then it was 5% man.. for a GROUP thingie..we dint expect it to take up so much time.. oh.. i think i wrote about this earlier.. but nvm.. let me repeat myself.. (feeling abit distracted n lost tonite).. anyway.. was supposed to study over the weekend for my damn Multimedia final on tues(its a half subject so ends in week 7).. at the moment i cant remember wat i did on sat.. haha.. but on sun.. went for yummy sushi with yun n jin.. only started studying around 4pm! =\.. ohh.. i remember now.. i was doing the Multimedia assignment with john whole sat! damn multimedia!! studied again on monday MISSED BLINK182! *sniff*
anyway.. sat for the paper.. which i think was pretty okay.. =) thank goodness.. came back.. was just tuning off when i remembered that we have something due tomolo that guess wat.. needed us to 'collaborate online' sheeeessshh.. making life difficult i say.. so was stuck here from 9-12.. n now i jsut cant think straight anymore.. ahha.. (told u i was distracted)just had a shower.. so waiting awhile before i head to bed.. *yawn*..

~Sleepy Morning Thoughts~

** why hasnt anyone placed a bid for my tix **
(yawn)(looks out)

** the weather is perfect for sleeping.. should i go back to bed **

** oh damn.. have to study for exam**
(gives multimedia notes a very dirty look)

** how i wish i can escape to my wonderful surreal world where i am 100% happy.. where wat i want is wat i need and is MINE **
(day dreams for sometime)

** wat if i went to sleep n never woke up.. would anyone notice? **

** would anyone care? **

** i think im going to lie down for abit.. cant think straight **

~The Village~

watched 'the village' tonite.. its a pretty interesting story.. and i agree with calvin.. it would have been much more exciting reading it.. having the story play in your mind.. (letting ur imagination run wild).. but then again.. i alwiz read the end first.. =p.. tats y i dont read thrillers and suspense novels.. but overall it was okie.. abit strange.. but alrite.. not very high on the scare factor rating..

[note] that was written last nite before yun n trav came over n we had our mini boggle session(i know.. nerdy.. but *shrugs* what else is there to do at like 1 in the morning?!

anyway.. spent the day with john trying to complete our multimedia assignment.. trying would be the key word.. the weather was so cool and tranquil that we kept nodding off and daydreaming! whenever i sit on the couch to read.. i'll almost most certainly doze off!! keke.. anyway.. we did do some work.. its all good..

still trying to sell off my blink 182 tix.. damn multimedia!!! totally forgot about the final (which so conveniently falls the day after the concert) =( so *sniff sniff* no blink 182 for me.. if i dint have to do this assignment.. i would have been able to study this weekend.. but nooooo.. anyway.. if i did go.. i would feel EXTREMELY guilty.. so i've resorted to trying to sell my tix off on e-bay and posting 2 ads online.. *fingers crossed ppl!* most likely to make a loss, but a smaller loss compared to just keepign the tix!!

anyway.. i think its time for bed.. its like 3.20.. ive been having too many late nites.. *wrinkles nose*

~Argh!!~

okie.. i have to bitch about the stoopid assignment which is worth the whole of FIVE marks.. but made all of us stay up till like 3 (and my case 4.30) in the morning!! and TEN pages long!! SINGLE spacing! does that mean we only get like half a mark per page?! sheeeesh!!! i know i know.. last minute work.. but 5 marks!! we dint think it'll take so much work!! esh! better give us at least 4.5 man!! stooooopid!

~Blog Addiction~

i think im addicted to blogging.. i can be sitting in lecture n suddenly think..'oh.. i should blog about that(something or rather)' not that i remember it and actually put it up here.. but yeah.. u get wat i mean rite?!*endearing look*.. it shows how much i pay attention in lectures hey? John, nic, safa n i have skipped the second hour of the last 2 lects we had.. i wasnt even paying attention in the first half of todays one since it was a guest lecturer who rattled on n on..=\ anyway.. before going off track again.. i feel like putting everything up here.. but i think that somethings are better left private..(in fear of scaring ppl off with my paranoia and unstable emotions!) but i think im addicted to writing down stuff.. wat i did.. wat i feel.. i just need to get it out of my system sometimes.. and i dowan to like bother my frenz too much with my babbling.. so i just babble here n entertain random ppl that come and read it! =) if u dont like it u just click that little 'X' on the right hand corner and you will never have to read my nonsense again! isnt it fantastic?! =P
okie.. i know im reallie babbling now.. hahaha.. i'm supposed to be finishing my assignment but instead.. here i am.. theres some anime called 'end of eva' that john asked me to watch showing on Sbs.. no idea wats happening there.. its smack in the middle of it and all i see is fighting, crying and ppl trying to kill each other.. (turns to tv for about 5 mins)*shrugs*.. anyway.. went to city with yun just now for 1 hr+ of late nite shopping n dinner.. spent about 1/2 an hour pot-pottering around sportsgirl.. ended up buying a bag for my sis, a $5 scarf!!(CHEAP!) and a chain.. chain n scarf were on sale.. ohh.. and i also got a very very nice white belt as well.. not from sportsgirl tho..
arghh!! i cant put it off anymore!!! time to do my assignmenT!!! =(

~Natalie~

here are some pictures of the little darling.. i CANT WAIT to see her when i go back!!





look how she grabs onto my dad's (im assuming thats my dad) finger.. *awwwwww*


with the proud mommy..

~Things that never fail to amaze me~

here are some stuff(that i can think of at the moment) that never fail to amaze me.. in no particular order.. and is in no way comprehensive..

• the unwavering everlasting love of my family(thats wat i call TRUE love)
• friends that dont give up on you and whom act as safety nets.. that share laughter, tears, and bring 'excitement' to life
• frenz(some) that are brave enuff to try my forays into the world of cooking (thank god so far its all good.. sorry to my dear frenz that had to put up with my horrifying cooking in foundation yr when i just started!)
• the wonderful smell and taste of yummy food! YUM!
  
• how sometimes when you think that the sky is going to stay permanently gloomy, u see a ray of sunlight fighting to get thru..
• how sand feels beneath ur bare feet.. the sound of waves hitting the rocks.. the taste of salt in the air.. the cool seabreeze..
• how a movie or book can make me cry.. even tho i've read/watched it before(maybe even more than twice)
• how music can soothe the soul
• the 'safe' feeling of being cuddled by a loved one..
• how dogs can recognize u even tho ur only home 4 months in a yr(my goldfishes dont have the brain capacity for this i think)
• how a hot drink can warm ur insides..
• how beautidul sunsets can be (esp from my balcony!)
• how much i can ramble on n on n on! =p