~Stupid subchapters!!~

u know the stupid chapter 13 that had subchapters? well.. guess wat.. it took me the whole of todays studying.. (about 7-8 hours) to work thru it! yes.. i may be slow.. but its damn irritating when u have 4 things to refer to(txtbook, lect slides, my notes, legislation AND case list).. and all about corporate governance.. *wrinkles nose* how oh how did my siblings actually live thru 5 yrs of studying this and then still go out and work as lawyers?! well.. at least now only 1 of them! seee.. now im one topic behind.. argh! okay.. maybe i shouldnt have watched CSI for 2 hours.. but i was having dinner!! and it was interesting!! =P 2 more topics to go before i have to look over everything again and do past year papers.. ARGH!

on the other hand.. reallie look forward to seeing wang cheen n yi ling tomolo.. (luckily they are coming at 10plus!) so.. no slacking tom before they come!! hmm.. maybe for an hour during dinner to watch CSI miami.. =P

sooooo tireeedddd.. n hungry.. reckon this milo im drinking now aint going to be enuff but cant be bothered to eat.. too much trouble..

~The 'Guy' Side of Lyn~

as i sit here with my yummy green tea ice cream.. (im putting on weight with all this sitting ard!but im sure u know that the amount of ice cream in my bowl is quite measly.. hahaha.. i like things in moderation! i still cant finish a scoop of ice cream..) i think about how lucky i am to have quite a number of friends that i dont see or talk to very often.. but where i still consider to be quite good friends.. where it reallie doesent matter when i last talked to them.. i still know that they care and when we do talk.. it seems like there was no break from when we last talked (besides the flurry of catching up).. kinda makes up (wrong choice of word but cant think of anything better atm) for the few that where no matter how hard i try.. things seem awkward.. sometimes due to the nature of the relationship in the past (we all know who).. sometimes due to the fact that we all change.. and sometimes so much that theres nothing much to talk about anymore.. its sad.. but a fact of life yes? while these put me down.. those other wonderful relationships i have lift me up and envelope me keeping me from pummelting headfirst into the ground.. sometimes so lost and blinded by my own misery i fail to see the wonder of those bright lights in my life..

I usually get comments on how most of my friends are guys.. (usually the guys complaining that i dont intro them to enuff gals.. as if any of them intro-ed me to any guys at all! HUMPH!) anyway.. here are some reasons why i think i'm a guy's buddy (rather than interest unfortunately)

• the music i enjoy.. cant stand pop most of the time.. preferring instead bands like dashboard, sp, korn, matchbox.. but nowadays i reckon lotsa soft rock radio friendly bands are pretty good too.. (lifehouse, okay i like SOME pop songs like kelly clarkson's SUBG)
• i simply adore sci fi fantasy.. eddings my all time fav.. i admit i only got to about page 30 of LOTR before falling asleep.. but gimme credit.. i think i was 14.. love to escape to the surreal world of magic n supernatural creatures like vamps!
• i actually enjoy playing comp games like warcraft and my favfavfav heroes (still waiting for the newest edition).. of coz games like GT too! can just sit and watch ppl(usually bro) play rpg games (n give all sorts of unsolicited advice of coz)
• i've been told many times that i think like a guy.. esp when it comes to things better left unmentioned here.. =P i cant help the way my mind thinks!!
  
• i sometimes obsess over wat i cannot get/achieve.. (admit it.. guys do it more than gals)
• trav claims the way i sit when im driving is very guyish too but i beg to differ.. i just have long legs!! n im trying to change the way i turn the wheel!!
• i dont mind and sometimes like thrillers/gross/scary movies.. cept those ghost houses ones coz I LIVE ALONE!
  

okay.. tats wat i came up in the last 10 mins while type typing.. =P but then again i love pretty cute things and enjoy shopping and getting all dolled up(ok.. guys enjoy it too but just dont admit it!) enjoy sappy romances.. erm.. damn.. cant think of very female stuff! i like flowers?n soft toys? enjoy baking? argh! nvm!!

~Cheated!!~

i feel reallie cheated!! i usually organize my studying schedule by the course outline judging how many chapters there are and how many i can absorb a day and by the fact that i usually lag one chapter behind.. so.. today.. happily i thought only 2 chapters for this topic.. but.. BUT fucking thing.. got thirteen.one - thirteen.SEVEN!! can u beliff it!? stoopid stoopid! (not talking about sub topics.. talking about 7 actual chapters!) looks like im going to be lagging 2 chaps and my frenz are coming down on wed!! ARGH!! 100 pages for the stoopid point shit.. and tho it may not sound like alot..its LAW! and coupled with the fact that i have to sometimes refer to this big chunk of 2600 odd pages of legislation where the paper is like tracing paper thin and so bloody hard to turn.. and thats the only thing im allowed to bring into the exam.. NO TAGS.. NO FOLDS.. only underlined and highlighted!! bloody hell.. so im supposed to remember where is wat?! ARGH! plus.. they never can write simple english sentences in law.. alwiz choosing to go thru things in such a boring rule based see legislation way.. puts me to sleep!!

bottom line..

i feel CHEATED!! *bu suang face*

~My so very UNproductive day~

corporate law can be EXTREMELY boring..

so.. since im stuck at home studying it..

decided to procrastinate and check out the disagreement we had about the movie last nite.. about how shawn was NOT the younger Takahashi bro.. it turns out Yun was right.. but Trav and I werent totally wrong.. coz.. even tho he had the car (sexy GTR) and the team(night kids).. the role in the movie was very very similar to the younger bro.. so we were mistaken.. =P

but anyway.. was chatting to Sheep while i was checking it out.. and we both agreed that Edison was cute.. hahaha.. quote "cuter than wang lee hom too" coming from sheep thats very high praise.. but she still mantains Andy lau is cuter.. (hes OLD dear.. i think old enuff to be your/my dad) but.. anyway.. we also agreed that edison has the 'cute but dont know it and am very lost' look.. which im a total sucker for.. *wrinkles nose* its true.. dunno wether its an unfortunate thing or not! hahahaha.. okay.. i sound like a crazed fan.. but i would have to say that Initial D was the first Edison movie that i actually caught at the movies.. ahhaha.. the rest were dvds.. dint even notice him till Infernal Affairs (which i dint end up watching till quite late (i think end 02) since im in land of Aus and no access to latest fake chinese dvds).. hahaha.. then found out that he actually speaks english.. (dint reallie notice chinese actors coz they dont speak english.. =P and my chinese.. is.. horrible.. so.. no reason to peeve..even peeving must have abit of logic)

and im seriously deprived of cute boys to peeve at..

so..

heres the 'lost lil boy look'


hahaha.. came across this.. i think its some levi's ad thingie amingie.. amazed that ppl actually do take alot of trouble to post pics and keep updated and stuff.. haha.. all i do is go to movies/buy dvds! =P

yes i am sad.. but i am also very bored and boredom makes usually rational ppl like me do lotsa moh lui (useless) stuff.. =P

~Initial D~

Trav Yun n i caught Initial D today .. surprisingly premiered the same time as asian countries.. anyway.. a few points..

1. Edison is cute..
   
2. Jay chou learnt to speak canto for the movie
3. he sounds funnee and i ended up reading the subtitles whenever he said more than 'mm'
   
4. Shawn is cute too but edison is cuter (but when my mom saw them in internal affairs she opted for shawn coz she said edison looked too boyish.. )
   
5. they squashed stage 1 - stage 3 in the 1 hr n 50 min movie
6. i still find skyline's lights very sexy (even tho it got its ass kicked in the movie)
7. i never got thru the first stage of anime.. too much technical info provided to interest me
8. did i mention that edison was very cute?

i'll stop at lucky no 8.. hahaha.. i think its very obvious why I went to watch the movie.. =P
okay dreams.. time to co-operate.. u know who i wanna dream about! =P

~My Wallpaper~

here it is sheep.. trying to convince myself of better brighter days ahead.. =) but not as pretty as the ones u took.. i seem to get the nicer ones on the normal cam..

p/s.. just showing sheep my wallpaper which is sunset taken from my balcony.. i just love capturing sunsets.. =)

~Stupid paper~

well.. dragged myself out of bed at 720 this morning to face one of the worst papers of my uni life.. i think.. i have serious worries about passing this one.. no 1 i wasnt reallie prepared for it.. and no 2.. the questions were quite different from those we did in class n past year papers.. (i think).. but yeah.. man.. i dont think i would FAIL (the horrid word) but i might have to sit for the supp.. and.. that means i might have to come back early from NZ.. ARGH!! Grace n I were sitting in the car counting whether we have enuff marks to pass this damn paper.. *Wrinkles nose* trying very hard not to think about it.. so trying to keep busy.. just had an hour long conversation with my mom.. catching up since i havent reallie been calling home this exam period.. there is a reason for that.. generally i enjoy talking to my mom.. but when im stressed/worried.. her tendency to nag(i know its for my good) gets on my nerves and i can be quite abrupt which brings on more nagging.. which gets me more worked up! but anyway.. nat (my niece if u forgot her name).. is getting cuter and cuter everyday and learning all kinds of stuff!! man.. now i reallie wanna go back! *wrinkles nose*.. and theres like 2 digicams back home but i have yet to see any photos since everyone came for my grad!! tska!!

my fingers are cold.. its cooooold outside today.. and i have to go down to the city later for mark's 21st!! man.. so young.. making me feel old!! =P

alrite.. going to take a niceeee hot showeeerrrr!! oh yeah.. damn.. wanted to write about something else but forgot and too lazy now.. aish..

~Dirty Dancing!~

watched 'Dirty Dancing 2: Havana Nights' during dinner/break..

hothothot!!

i wanna dance tooo!!! the dancing in the movie is a mix of ballroom dancing n dirty dancing .. i likeee!! looks so SEXY!!

p/s.. the actor is pretty cute in a boyish way too.. =P *fans herself*

i wanna dance like that!! =P

~Rambling on and on~

so unproductive today.. thru out the whole day i felt so lethargic.. i think the lack of sleep (ave about 6 hours plus sleep per night..) which is not terribly unusual for me.. but add that to the amount of concentration im putting into cramming.. *phew*.. as u know me.. i go thru life only actually concentrating less than half the time.. keke.. thats y i dont gamble much.. i usually dont pay attention after 20 mins.. just randomly play hoping im not the loser or that i might just win.. =P
anyway.. im tired.. but.. ive been sleeping at 4/5 am.. and.. now its 3 and just drank a cup of milo.. was damn hungry for some reason.. and.. im so sleepy.. but here i am typing away on this donated-by-trav-after-i-spilled-milo-on-mine keyboard.. i should be studying.. but i spent about the half hour reading 10 pages and absorbing maybe 2? i should be sleeping but.. my bed is collld.. (i'm sitting by the heater now with milo warm in my tummy.. =P and aso dl past yrs paper.. so dont scold..) anyway.. i want someone to warm my bed!! (do i sound like a spoilt child yet?hmm.. realised i said someONE not something.. hahaha.. well.. if it was a 'one' and not 'thing'.. i dont think much sleeping will be done anyway no?)

yesterday.. after my paper.. went to catch BATMAN BEGINS! so exciting.. (gimme a break.. after the cramming session i had on sunday my brain REALLIE needed a break).. anyway.. we were late coz had to drop yun's books (that were due) at the lib.. i hate missing the begining of movies so i said i dint wanna watch if the movie started.. (no im not spoilt.. i just like to watch the WHOLE movie!) movie scheduled to start at 8.30 and we arrived ard 8.40.. asked the fella at the counter whether it started.. he said no.. so happily in we went.. and then! it STARTED!! so i guess i looked very unhappy so trav asked if wanna catch the 920 one which i readily agreed.. =P (p/s they made me go change the tixs and called me spoooilt!! *wrinkles nose*) so off i went to do my grocery shopping before the movie.. while yun n trav stood ard reading mags..went in just on time to catch some nice previews (war of the worlds and some other nice movies that i for some reason cannot remember the titles) but guess wat.. we missed about THREE minutes of batman the first time.. HAHAHAHAHA.. ah well.. i had to buy groceries anyway.. =P

~Father's Day Shoutout~

i hope everyone remembered to wish their dads yesterday.. fathers day is celebrated on a different day here.. but.. i had a card!! i think i bought it last year when it was father's day here.. anyway.. IT ARRIVED.. for some reason.. the cards i send back addressed to my dad seem to get lost in the mail.. happened twice alredi.. very upsetting.. last years bunny card got lost *pout*..
my dad sometimes complain that i dont hug him often enough nowadays.. 'doesent mean big alredi cannot hug daddy rite?'.. =) reallie miss home sometimes..

anyway.. heres to all the dads out there that made their little gals/boys feel loved..

~Its Official~

yeap.. its official.. today has been the most intense studying (cramming) session of my young life so far.. its.. 4.45am.. ive been awake since 11 and studying for most of the time since 12 noon.. i think.. about 11-12 hours of doing work.. breaks for lunch tea dinner showers.. no coffee.. only a 20 min nap sometime in the evening.. man.. how do ppl study DURING session when its so bloody boring?! most prob so they wont have to do this.. =P

~Touchy Feely Me~

im so tired from cramming.. tis not funny at all.. *wrinkles nose*.. i dont think i have studied so.. intensely? before.. or rather.. ive never been so last minute about it.. i blame fridays paper.. took up SO much time.. =P (blame everyone but myself for not starting to study earlier.. =P)..

anyway.. i'm on a break now.. my brain is tired..

hmm.. i've noticed (okay i've noticed a long time ago).. that im a very 'touchy feely' person.. i crave physical closeness.. and i dont mean just to the opposite sex(get your mind out of the gutter!!).. maybe its being that im 'comforted' with someone i love within reach.. and i cant help but reach out to touch them.. whether its to walk arm-in-arm.. for a hug.. or just touch.. i would say that its worse with bfs.. of coz not to the point where im all over them!! (mind out of gutter again!).. its just.. i guess.. comforting to have them by u.. so.. i most of the time i usually end up being in some form of contact.. however minimal.. with very close frens and family.. its similar.. (plus sometimes i do something that i wont mention here.. =P) well.. it depends on how the person reacts with their personal space being invaded.. but who doesent love a good cuddle? haha.. sheep might get scared of this monster running towards her for a hug but I DONT CAREEEE =P..

i think it all ties down to my fear of being left.. of being alone.. that i need reassurance that i dont know.. *shrugs*

i miss being in your arms and being able to rest my head on your shoulder ..
leting all worries get swept away by the sense of belonging and security..
it was all an illusion.. a beautiful comforting illusion..
but only an illusion so easily shattered..

did i mention that i had a few 'funky' dreams recently? *devil horn smiley that i so love on msn*

~Sucky Paper~

argh!! u know how i was talking about learning(yes.. actually learning for the first time) and cramming for my exam today.. well.. the end result.. a total mind block DURING the exam!! argh! i had all this information in my head.. but then.. i couldnt remember which belonged to wchih different damn accounting method or i had bits and pieces of it.. i was trying to aim for a D in this subject as i alredi have about 33/40 and only need about 43/60 to get my D.. but.. BUT.. i HAD TO GO SCREW IT!! i know la.. my fault la.. wait until last minute only study.. dont pay attention in class.. but.. ARGH!!.. it would have helped if the stoopid lecturer dint just read in class and required me to do some form of writing! no one to blame but meeeeeeeeee.. and nowww.. have to start studying for monday and fridays.. (monday is a half subject.. so 8 weeks.. but at least i pay attention in class and i got.. ermm.. 33/40 aso.. but its bloody LAW.. and i i'm crap at it..) .. friday.. no D alredi la.. that one.. internal only 28/40.. laupek.. only hope for credit.. aiyoaiyo.. no use moaning about it now.. have to study.. *wrinkles nose*.. li ann's grad dinner tonite.. missed her grad this afternoon coz i had the STUPID paper.. *rant rant*

shall stop sounding like a mad ranting woman..

bottom line.. LYN SHOULDNT CRAM FOR EXAMS!!

~ARGH!!~

my mind is exhausted.. most prob coz i've been trying to stuff 8 weeks worth of work (which i had no clue of before last week) into 7 days.. after months of downtime.. my poor brain has been working overtime.. but i reckon im quite slack alredi.. i make it a point to go out for lunch.. its about an hour n a half of study time.. but at least i get OUT of my place.. breathe some fresh air.. (and a good excuse to put off studying) =P

besides that.. the outside world i guess is progressing like it alwiz does.. as they say.. tide waits for no man.. (or did i just make that up?)

anyway.. i forgot wat else i wanted to blog about.. hmmmm.. nvm.. back tos tudying *grimace*

EXAM TOMOL!! ARGH!!!!! im so dead so dead so dead!! coz.. havent started mondays studying!! which means i have to stuff about 6 weeks into 2 n half days!!but at least i pay attention in that class.. but still!! SCREWEDDDD!!

~Honoured~

im honoured flattered and touched by wat sheep wrote.. i cant properly describe the feeling to have someone appreciate you.. no questions.. no questions.. just.. love.. especially in the superficial world we now live in..

some relationships where someone might declare their undying love one min and everythings peachy.. next thing u know.. you aint so special no more.. no matter wat you do or how hard u fight for it.. something special just dissipates to .. emptiness.. u try to fill it with other ppl.. other things.. but.. nothing will properly fill it..

some relationships.. u know.. will weather thru almost anything.. come laugther tears frustrations joy.. u want to share it all with them.. those.. i believe u should grasp with both hands and fight tooth and claw to hold on to.. if they feel the same..u know that it'd be for a long long time.. if they dont.. u might just end up with the heartache mentioned above.. but then.. i'll take the chance ANYTIME..

sheep.. i love you and i miss you loads.. i know i say it alot.. but that doesent mean that i dont mean it every single time i say it..

coz i do..

*hugz*

~Exams killed my social life~

my 'oh so achingly boring' routine for the pass few days..

wake up around 12-ish..
pitter potter around looking forlorn n lost deciding wat to do..
do some household chores.. (my place.. a mess.. )
study..
go out for lunch nearby..
face the wall my fish tank and the the stupid consolidation journals again..
make some sort of dinner and watch a vcd..
pitter potter around trying to put off studying..
feel damn guilty and study till about 5..
sleep..

bad day.. =(

~Bunny Rabbit: The Story~

The setting:
1am on a semi dark side street with small houses on each side..

The Players:
TravTheBlur YunTheCold and LynTheLost

The Scenerio:
Driving YunTheCold back from LynTheLost's place after dinner and watching Triplets of Belliville (which i have to say was quite an amusing and very different kind of cartoon). TravTheBlur came down right at the end of the movie and decided to accompany them on the ride to YunTheCold's place.. While driving up Meeks St (i think it was meeks).. they suddenly see this lil bunny rabbit hop hopping on the road.. Indecision whether or not to catch the bunny before it gets run over.. decided to save the poor bunny wabbit.. offs engine and leaves hazard lights on as did not park properly in haste to catch bunny.. TravTheBlur has been nominated bunny catcher out of silent vote.. YunTheCold and LynTheLost sees the bunny and tries to call TravTheBlur, but due to the fact that TravTheBlur needs to get his ears checked he does not hear us quick enough and the bunny hops off (very very quickly i must say).. Proceed to try to look for bunny rabbit down the st where it was last seen hop hopping away.. 5 minutes past after 2 ppl walk by most probably thinking what this three weird ppl are doing in the middle of the road and a few cars just whizzing by quickly.. LynTheLost is glad that she turned on the hazard lights.. YunTheCold is worried that police might just come by and ask them what in the world are they doing on a winters night at 1am in the morning in the middle of a road.. Decide to give up the bunny rabbit search as they are now cold and begining to tire of squinting in the dark.. drive round the block another time hoping that the lights will scare the bunny out again.. apparently not.. drives YunTheCold home.. LynTheLost worries about the fate of the poor bunny wabbit..

THE END

chance encounter again.. *wrinkles nose*.. i think sometimes unconciously i want them to happen.. but then it leaves me with a sense of wanting.. n then knowing im not 100% over it.. heck.. maybe not even 60%.. *wrinkles nose*

~Random is the word of the day!~

was just checking out jeremy's blog.. and i came across some blogs that he reads (of random ppl).. theres that xiaxue as usual (not too sure whether thats how u spell her name.. cant remember) the singaporean blogger (i shall refrain from saying anything at all about it).. and then another one caught my interest.. suckball .. no idea who they are but some of the articles i checked out were pretty funny (i was dead bored procrastinating about studying for exams which are 2 weeks away).. then clicked on a link that was on their blog n checked it out (someone who REALLIE likes fairies.. ) anyway.. on her blog i came across some blogs that i stumbled across before and read sometimes when im reallie bored (acidtripping.. demented kat).. i dont think she knows them in person.. but.. its funny how some ppl just sometimes read random blogs.. (okay.. SOME ppl) i just think its 'fun' to read about some random normal person's life.. (usually come across fellow malaysians or singaporeans).. but.. yeah.. strange yet fun.. i think it caught on from yun.. (yes dear.. i never used to read random ppls blogs before i u showed me some random strangers blog.. =P but i still love you yes.. =) )

anyway.. then i thought.. man.. if im reading some random (random seems to be the word of the day) persons blog.. then some random (there it is again!) person may be reading my blog too!! thought that for the whole of 2 seconds before i realised that there is absolutely nothing interesting for a random stranger to read/ see here (unless they are checking out my frens then go ahead and contact me if u want intros! hahaha) its full of my random(again!!) rantings and bouts of 'downness' and obsession over that boy i cant have.. *wrinkles nose* haha.. but i reckon its a good way for frens to keep in touch.. (ie u reading about my shit and if u have a blog i read about urs and we can talk about it when we meet up which may not be very soon..and also coz im horrible at replying emails punctually and i wanna keep sheepish updated on my 'ohsoboring' life so we can gossip next time.. ) and sometiems its just easier to type stuff up rather then saying out loud becoz ur worried about perceptions and yada yada.. and also sometimes i dowan to bother my poor frens too much with my obsession la.. u can skip reading but u cant fastforward me talking.. yes?

okay.. im sleepy and i think i should head to bed before i further confuse any poor soul.. or random(just couldnt resist) reading this..

please send edison/josh/danielwu/brad to my dreams.. or someone equally that yummy.. i am not very fussy.. =)

~Random Lyn Fact~

i've got three moles on my lower back.. kinda looks like a lopsided triangle.. just noticed it in the mirror the other day.. (was checking out my back.. n came to a conclusion that my back is quite attractive.. hahaha.. maybe more so than my front!)

my neck is sore.. my right wrist is sore.. stoopid badminton!

emotions in turmoil..tumultuos feelings..memories..regret..longing..anger..love..hurt..disjointed thoughts..suppressed thoughts..bubbling to the surface..hidden yet so real..

~Photos!!~

some random pictures that were alredi minimized by Yun =)


farewell dinner for my sister who went back home on sun


impromtu 2am karaoke session


just a nice picture i took of pre- sunset at bronte