~In The End~

im leaving in less than 4 days.. even tho my mind resists facing the fact.. i know its imminent.. 5 yrs.. 5 yrs of laughter tears smiles and heartache.. sweet and bitter memories come tumbling forward mixed up and bittersweet.. it seems like only yesterday i arrived in sydney.. all excited yet worried about starting out in a new place all on my own.. and now.. its almost time to go.. even tho im coming back for 2 mths in summer.. its not going to be the same with most of my friends gone.. its like coming home to an empty home.. devoid of the usual special something that makes it 'home'.. maybe its a good choice to go back for awhile to be with the family.. maybe.. i dont know.. almost everyday someone tries to convince me to stay.. and i swing undecided.. such a big life altering decision i'm i'll equiped to make..

but for now.. i'll enjoy the last few days of random nonsense with the gang.. and then i'll bid this life adieu..

~Bows and Ties~

PARTY TONITEEEE!! *jumps ard in excitement like danturt!*

~Where the heart is~

its frightening to think of how fragile a human life is.. how easily a bright light can be snuffed out forever.. its even more terrifying to think of your own parents mortility..my parents play such a pivotal role in my life.. whether directly or indirectly.. its just comfortating to know that they are always there.. supporting you no matter how many times you screw up.. or wat decisions you make.. wrong or right.. when the world turns against you.. i beliff that they would still love you.. for who you are alone.. not because of wat you have got or how much money you have..

its then so terrifying to think how one day they wont be there anymore.. no one to tell you i told you so while picking you up and dusting you off.. no one to nag at you because they care and love you.. i'm the youngest in the family with quite a big age gap between me and my siblings.. with parents turning 60.. and problems with health croping up now and then.. i'm faced with the frightening reality that they are truly getting old and they arent the godlike immortal beings that i beliff most children view their parents as.. and i'm scared.. even tho i'm more than old enuff to be living independently on my own.. this fledging will never truly call anywhere else home.. coz home.. home is where the heart is..

~Random Observations~

it kinda amuses me that even tho my msn nick starts with my name and the email addy for my msn is my name, yet.. ppl sometimes message me spelling my name with 2 'n's.. granted its usually ppl that are not very close.. but.. ermm.. dont they see the nick?! Lyn.. one n.. i've kinda given up correcting ppl most of the time..unless they spell it as lin.. that i cannot tolerate.. but i imagine shi yun has it much worse as most eng eds cant pronounce her name correctly (me included!).. hahaha..

oh.. and i love how ppl use endearments.. personally i use 'dear' alot.. usually when im sarcastic or trying to be patient.. haha.. my dad calls me darling sometimes.. and various guy frens call me dear.. one used to call me princess.. they might do that with other girls.. but i still like the ring of affection it gives.. as long as they dont call every chick with an endearment while im within earshot! haha.. tis strange.. all my ex'es gave me reallie sweet endearments.. cept one who just called me by name.. and guess which i was most fucked up over? hahaha..

i had two boys over last (trav n YJ Lee).. drinking beer on my balcony.. they were confined to the balcony coz i was studying.. every now and then they would come check that im studying and then interrupt me for abit.. it was amusing listening them bicker on the most irrelevant things when they were slightly tipsy.. and then.. stupid wan kong plopped down on my bed and refused to move.. and encouraged Yj to try out my bed too.. *wrinkles nose*.. i JUST managed to save my pillows.. after awhile they were both asleep but yj got up after awhile to use the loo and he fell asleep on the couch.. so.. when i wanted to sleep i just pushed the lump of mass on my side of the bed to the other side.. and early in the morning.. he wakes up and asks wat hes doing there.. *rolls eyes*.. a boy in my bed is not as exciting as it sounds.. nope.. definately not *shakes head*.. unless its a hot boy.. now.. hmm.. that could have interesting possibilities! =P

~Weekend Report~

Supposed to be studying over the weekend.. but instead all i accomplished was 4 weeks of lecture notes and 2 of the associated textbook chapters.. still got another 4 weeks to go before wednesday 845am.. *wrinkles nose*.. thank god its only the theory part.. or else i would be royally screwed (as opposed to just screwed now.. )..

ah well.. sore throat and at least 2 ulcers on my tongue at the moment.. i REFUSE to be sick after my exam.. if i have to drown myself in alco to not feel the pain i will! (good excuse to drink yes?).. hahaha.. its the damn weather.. and the fact that i had fried stuff and baked stuff 3 days in a row.. but dont wanna see the doc coz most prob get antibiotics then cant drink! (oh no begining to sound like alco?!).. haha.. went for yam cha with leanne, ruebz n gang yesterday.. was pretty fun.. i nearly missed out on it coz i woke up witht he horrible throat.. but glad i went as 2 of them are heading back to sg tom and most prob wont be seeing them for quite some time.. came back.. did some studying.. then went to star city (casino) with them again late at nite.. i lost 3 dollars on this game called keno which is not very exciting.. at the end JY(dunno how to spell his name) and i just ended up watching ppl play poker (i wanted to see!! so i dragged him there to keep an eye on him and ensure that HE dint gamble anymore!!) ended up in superbowl (thank god coz i was damn hungry as only had a small bowl of chicken soup for dinner).. going to miss hanging out with them when i go back too i think..

this year has been quite a good year for meeting ppl.. i just met them last sem.. and also met the 'pornstars' this sem.. =) going to miss everyone thats not in kl.. *pout*

was fun.. and now.. i MUST.. StuDY... MUST!!!...

~Friday nite~

ate instant macroni and panfried fish.. baked flourless chocky cake.. cleaned my kitchen floor.. all while watching watever was on tv.. which so happened to be centerstage and man in the iron mask.. both which i've seen before.. and now.. since its only 2.. either sleep or study.. *wrinkles nose*

yeap.. friday nite at home..

~1 Down~

1 down (or rather 2 if u count the take home).. and 2 to go!! cantwaitcantwait! 3+ hours of sleep last nite.. i was yawning thru the first half hour of the exam.. and due to last min review.. i forgot to revise a part that i told myself at the very start i should coz it might come out.. and guess wat it did! for i think 6 marks! i could have aced it.. but instead i just BS my way thru! *wrinkles nose*.. wat could have been my first HD.. flew out the window at that point! =
anyway.. its 3.30 in the morning.. sitting here eating a tiny bowl of pasta from 2 nites ago.. sun nite was 2 nites ago rite?! anyway.. was a lil hungry n there was a big bowl left! dint wan all of it to go to waste (dont think it'll survive till tom no?).. very very sleepy.. not much progress made to tax (which is on thursday and damn scary).. did however tidy up last 2 days mess and also fit in a movie 'election' (some chinese gangsta movie did dint do too much for me).. keke.. hey.. i deserve an arvo off after an exam rite! =p ermm.. unfortunately it turned out to be the better half of the day.. ahha.. 4 hrs plus put into tax and only accomplished 2/3 of wat i wanted to finish today.. i think my mind has gone to sleep and im rambling (a lil more than usual)..

bottom line..
auditing - fairly easy (okay quite if u pay attention in class)
tax - fucking hard.. (even if u are frantically copying notes during lects and understand most of wats being said during lects)
okay.. maybe tax would be slightly better if i had done the weekly readings (i'm not going to even attempt the textbook.. tried that.. extremely confusing and sleep provoking).. auditing on the other hand had next to none reading! =P


a photo taken after one of those mad kamikaze all niters.. i think it was taken at 5am or something like that.. where it was starting to get bright but the moon was still high up..

i've kinda lost track of the days of the week since im at home everyday TRYING to study.. yesterday.. i woke up.. go all ready to walk to to the post office to send something off.. went downstairs.. noticed that the photocopy shop was closed.. wondering why.. so i looked at the sign.. 'sunday - closed'.. then.. sheepishly i made a 90d turn and walked back up.. hahaha..

i cant seem to muster enuff motivation and drive to study properly.. on ave i wake up at 12.30ish and sleep ard 4.30.. but i think i only get in 6-8 hours of proper studying? 3 in the evening n 3 late at night where i realise that i'm behind.. argh! maybe becoz this session has been the worst and most hectic session of my uni life.. and im alredi so sick of everything.. and this session only 1 out of 4 of my subjects look like they are going anywhere.. i'm just passing one of them.. argh.. excuses excuses.. thank god this is the last few papers i'm going to have to sit for.. summer and i'm DONE.. ABOUT TIME!! *wrinkles nose*

oright.. back to studying.. again.. boring.. argh.. cant wait for 23..

~random~

last week i somehow developed some rash on my arms n 2 of my fingers.. i dont know wat i touched/ wore.. but.. ITS DAMN ITCHY n IRRITATING! *mumble grumble*.. no.. its not becoz i dint shower! i've just got reallie sensitive skin and i think its something i wore or maybe tried on (yun suggested its the kookai dress).. oh.. speaking of that.. i tried on this very pretty dress (the same day i bought one).. it was so pretty i couldnt resist taking a photo fo it while in the fitting room (so bimbo rite?) but as u can see by my amateur self photo taking skills.. i dont do it very often!
but anyway. . rash.. damn.. itchy... will.. resist.. stupid skin.. not only do i have mild eczema (shouldnt have seen me when i was young.. my skin reacts badly to bites (worse are sandflies' bites!).. and theres alot of sandy areas at skool!! ) and it takes forever for scars to fade.. *wrinkles nose*..

okay.. study study!

~Birthday Wishes~

birthday shoutout to yi ling (okay slightly belated).. and jason! i hope your day was/is funfilled and special! sorry i couldnt/cant be there to celebrate with u!! *hugz*

~a Kettlefull~

from 2pm (lunch) to 7pm, i drank a whole kettlefull of water.. all 1.7 L of it.. and im still feeling thirsty.. hints at how much flavouring there is in Ayam Goreng's grilled chicken and cah kankung huh??

p.s.. this post also hints at how bored i am.. keep falling asleep.. *wrinkles nose*

~Bored~

im so bored so bored so bored.. studying is so boring so boring so boring..

procrastinating on the other hand.. takes up much more time! =P

oh.. look.. i decided to take a pic of my plant which for some reason was all drying out (dont ask me why.. i was alredi thiknking of how to tell my mom i killed her plant).. and then after a few days.. i decided to go throw away the dead leaves (whihc were plentiful1).. then i noticed that there were some small little shoots (thats not the way u spell it but cant be bothered to check) anyway.. so i happily plucked out all the dead ones (maybe 30 of them) .. and a few days later alot of small little leaves were growing~! *jumps ard in excitement*.. anyway.. shows how new life can grow out of old huh? or am i making no sense.. im just reallie bored..

anyway.. after taking a pic of that plant i decided to take pics of all the other plants (so they wont feel left out u know!).. ahhaha.. so here is my little garden corner..

~Pumpkins~

supposed to start studying YESTERDAY.. but here i am.. past midnite of TODAY (or technically TOMORROW) and nothing is done yet.. unless u call punchin holes into my lecture notes n arranging it into a file to bring into the exam.. i know wat ur thinking.. can bring in stuff.. easssy la! WRONG!! its bloody tax law!! argh!!

know how im alwiz getting all these small little scrapes and cuts? well.. i managed to get this scratch from my fridge in my excitement of discovering i had some brownies from last week stashed in there! =P (i still dont know how i got those scratches on my thigh!) *wrinkles nose*

im being way random but here are some pics of the pumpkins Yun Trav n I carved up for the costume party.. we couldnt get big pumpkins so we had teeny tiny ones!

order: trav's mine Yun's trav's

and mine..t hats supposed to look mean but ended up looking 'cute' instead!!

i need to find/think of more occasions where i can wear my dresses.. as they are collecting dust in my cupboard.. all 7 of them .. 2 new.. the rest worn ONCE!! ARGH!

~I'm Shy!!~

dawn is either:
a) shy
b) lazy
c) sick *choi choi choi* *touches wooden table frantically*

she hides between the plant most of the time.. one time she was actually upside down.. and i tappeed the glass frantically thinking she was stuck or something! i think i need to get her a buddy SOON!!

oh.. i went on a destress shopping trip at BJ today with Yun after yesterdays frantic rush to finish my 2k exam (which i put off for 3 days before seriously starting).. did it the whole day n nite finished at 6am printed out (with slight printer crisis) and passed it up at 7.. *phew*.. i am so sick of this subj (the one that i spent hours n hours on the assn) and guess wat.. he gave me 3/5 for class participation!! i think i only missed 2 classes n i usually say something!! *shakes fist angrily*.. haha.. will stop whining.. but usually do end up getting pretty high marks for participating since i love asking random qs! anyway.. im glad im over n done with the subject.. i HOPE *fingers crossed* i pass the exam man.. i dint even proof read it since i was so tired and sienz.. wanted to bake something but reallie tired coz i think i only got 5 hrs sleep..

oh.. I BOUGHT A VERY PRETTY DRESS FROM KOOKAI!! *jumps ard excitedly* it was on saleeeeeee.. lalalaa!! now i need an occasion to wear it..!!

*chants*
need a hug!!
need a cuddle!!
need a massage!
*chants chants chants!*

~Yummy Smells!~

someone is cooking something that smells familair and extremely YUMMY!! i can smell it from here (my comp) and its making me hungry!! (or maybe its coz ive been awake 3 hrs n only had my cuppa milo n a tub of yogurt! *wrinkles nose) such a pleasent change from the icky doggy smell i usually get outside my apartment thanks to my opp neighbours (they dont complain about the noise i sometimes make and i dont complain about the teeny tiny dog that manages to stink up the corridor and sometimes my door area!)

~What Dreams May Come~

supposed to be stressing over my take home exam.. but ended up going to borders with Yun to get mags.. with mel tagging along.. i reckon Yun needed the break after the hectic night before that saw both of us on my living room floor cutting and pasting stuff for her thesis poster.. with laupek clear clingy paper and laupek cello tape!! luckily it went quite well.. =)

same cant be said about my exam.. i reallie have no clue on wats going on.. and since its one of those 'apply with no set answer' kind.. im going to try to wing it.. been putting it off.. ah well.. going have to complete it by sunday the latest.. lect was very nice actually giving us all an extension over the weekend coz alot of the students work.. ahh.. well.. no choiiiiceeeeeeeeee...

anyway.. after yummy tonkatsu noodles and sinful hot chocky.. we came back to my place to watch 'what dreams may come' (again).. and the person who wanted to watch it.. ie yun.. slept thru half the movie (as usual!) cant blame the poor dear tho.. only had about 2 hrs of sleep last nite.. the movie was done very prettily and very surreal i reckon.. heaven and hell.. huge contrast.. and the soul mates bit.. beautiful.. makes u yearn for love like that.. someone who is willing to stay in hell just to be with you.. if i ever find someone like that.. i reckon that everyone has a soul mate.. but whether u find them is a different thing.. maybe it takes many life times for u to meet that soul mate.. but i wonder if there are ppl that are lucky enuff to meet their soul mate but not realise it and then let them slip away? that would be sad yes? ah well.. we can all dream about meeting the one right person whom makes everything in this life special and whom will take you thru anything.. never giving up on you.. but then again.. family comes close no?

anyway.. heres a pic from shung lee's farewell drinks.. (shung lee is not pictured here as he was LATE! haha.. but we were late numerous other times.. so.. guess we're even!)

~Curiousity~

in usual lyn fashion.. have started thinking about something that will be likely to end up being more trouble to myself.. and the more i think about it the more curious i get!! *wrinkles nose*

yes yes.. curiousity killed the cat.. i know i konw.. but dint u hear the cat had nine lives?

~Thin Line Between Tasteful and Trashy~

my dressing has changed alot thruout the years.. went thru the baggy pants, the big shirts short skirts, the conservative look.. and now.. i'm experimenting a lil with the .. 'show off your assets'.. not that i have loads of it.. hahaha.. but then i reckon i better try it out here where its shown in abundance and no one reallie notices it unless its falling out of ur top.. than back home where strange men give u looks and u feel generally awkward..
anyway.. im just wondering.. how do u judge the line between tasteful and trashy? whos to judge? i mean the same top on different ppl may present different images.. and.. i guess whether u wear it with confidence makes alot of difference.. i'm still getting used to the idea of having a revealing decollete and so much cleavage showing.. doing without the usual tube underneath.. hahaha.. i definately wont be able to do it at home.. i reckon my parents and my bro wont let me out of the house! haha.. ah well.. shall enjoy dressing however way i want where no one reallie gives u strange looks while i can!!

anyway.. have to start studying for my take home paper!! picking up the paper wed eve and have to complete it by friday arvo.. !!! there is ZERO motivation to study for this subject as i alredi spent shitloads of time doing the assn (this is the one where i was stuck in skool for hours at a go!).. ive read.. 2 weeks worth of lecture notes so far.. havent touched the textbook.. i am SO SCREWEEEEED!! *wrinkles nose*

oh.. a pic from SLee's bday .. i tot it was pretty cute.. no?