~Yet Another Short Post!~

1) i got the rejection letter (email) from accenture.. and
2) my first reaction was one of happiness (that i dint have to make any hard decisions).. but
3) i beliff that i tried my best at both interviews.. so
4) i'm off to syd in 6 (SIX!!!!) days with a clear conscience.. however
5) have no idea how im going to cart everything back w/o being overweight
6) was reading anna's blog (while waiting for this to load in the oh so slow connection).. and
7) was reading an entry on her attending a SSA (sg assoc).. but
8) couldn't imagine myself going to another one of those.. so
9) i've concluded that im either/and a) getting old b) miss my partying kaki c) never reallie was into it.. however
10) i do so enjoy drinking and look forward to getting pissed with my spaz dears SOON! =)

life has been.. both slow and stressful.. days where i dont think about the damn job interview are slow spent at mostly at home just reading and keeping my mom company.. cooked a few meals (since my mom shouldnt be cooking and the maid is just hopeless)..have come to a realisation that i do not have many frens (that i meet up often) left here.. and the few that i do are quite busy working so if we do meet up its gonna be friday or sat nites.. which is life i guess since i am already 23 and should be working by now and that is wat working life is about.. but i guess i had more to occupy my time in sydney since i had to do housekeeping and i still have friends who are as yet not working.. and i can actually drive the car or catch a bus to almost anywhere i wanna go ard town.. and maybe also due to the fact that i always look forward to evenings when the boy comes home.. ah well.. 10 more days before i leave..

~Decisions decisions~

i dont recall ever having to make such important decisions that might/might not change the outcome of my life.. now my family (siblings)
have accepted the fact that i have made up my mind about applying for the PR. then comes another complication.. i get called up for an interview with accenture (i dunno if ive mentioned this before) yes its a company im looking to work for and an ideal job for my line.. but then i put in my resume only becoz kit (my bro in law) told one of the partners im interested in dec (thats true.. n at that time me getting the pr wasnt a concrete plan yet).. so off i sent my resume.. and then.. i get a request for my spm results.. and so i tot thats it.. im going to get rejected.. which i did.. after i told my sister , whom told her husband who got all flustered coz the guy said he'll get me an interview at least.. but at that time i alredi told my sister im going to stay in syd.. but nooooo.. go pester and i get called up for an interview (which was followed subsequently with another email rejection followed by another interview phonecall.. ) which causes all kindsa hiccups.. it also causes a little friction in my r/s since he was predicting that something like that will happen and they offer me a good job and then i'll stay.. maybe for a few months.. which gets longer and longer till eventually its harder for me to leave and go back. but i was determined and so sure that i will come back so i kept promising that wont happen.. that i will come back after a mth.. oh.. and then i go attend the interview (yesterday) and today i get called up for a second interview tom.. if which i get thru i will be asked to attend a final interview and finalyl a job.. and now my siblings have changed their tunes.. from staying back to work.. they now say stay and work for a few mths while u wait for the pr.. which if i think rationally is a very advantageous thing as it is quite a big global firm and i have Nil working experience.. but then knowing that its good and being happy about it is two EXTREMELY different spectrums.. and so it causes more problems.. the boy aint happy that i might stay..(hes worreid that it'll be as he predicted) but he supports me and knows that it might be good for the bigger picture as well.. but its hard coz i did promise i'll be back.. and this is kinda sudden.. i'm having trouble coping with it as it is.. and damn i never knew i was such a cry baby.. i seem to be doing nothing but that.. everytime the topic comes up or i think about it.. tnsim thinks im stressing prematurely as its not certain i'll get thru this.. (as a fresh grad she went for 2 interviews as well).. but then i'm not one who is able to let things just lie like that.. i hate uncertainties and want to try to address any avenues thats likely to arise.. and so i do.. and i seem to be stressing the boy out in the process.. the poor dear.. (well i never said it would be easy to put up with me..=P)

and so i face the second interview tom.. the decision to go is the most logical step to take.. but whether i will get called back and whether i eventually get an offer.. and whether i'll accept it.. (or be pressured into doing so) is yet to be seen..

~Short post~

1) i cant beliff how crap my internet connection is
2) have an interview for a job i dont reallie want on tuesday (wish me luck anyway)
3) my hair is now short-ish (just touches shoulder) some yeah yeah style which apparently makes me look younger
4) i seem to be visiting a shopping mall almost everyday (theres almost nothing else to do).. but
6) it is quite expensive to shop (at the nicer shops!)
6) its very hot .. yet
7) i've been having the flu for over 12 days (from day 2 of arriving)
8) my mom seems to be happy that im now attached (as im old enuff now)
9) i miss my boy and all the sydney peeps
10) i kinda cant wait to get back (much as i love my family)

~Of being the Youngest and the Tumtum~

being the youngest is alwiz said to have more perks.. i dont disagree.. the hand me downs can be quite good at times (and quite icky at times too) in most aspects it does.. but in certain aspects it can be quite.. trying? you get compared to not only your older siblings but the numerous older cousins as well.. there is a need to be as smart/fit/intelligent/thin/wellspoken/successful and many other things.. as anyone that is older than u.. or else its 'why cant you', 'they've done it', 'u should be more like' (etcetc) im not saying that all those apply to me.. but being the youngest in a family of 4.. where the older 3 are quite the overachievers can be quite difficult.. not only are they quite successful and smart.. they look good doing it too.. all and all.. i would say its not too healthy on my self esteem.. nopenopenope *shakes head sadly* this time my poor tumtum is catching lotsa flak.. as it alwiz does..out of the 10 times or so i've been back for holidays.. i think maybe twice tumtum has satisfied general consensus.. so far its been coming from my mom.. but i've yet to spend significant time with my siblings.. im sure its coming.. so far after mom was commenting on it sis said i COULD work on it.. my dad thinks its fine..but hes my dad.. usually the last to comment if he does.. apparently(or so it seems) being able to fit into a M(or 10) at my height is not enuff.. *shrugs*