PARENTS ARE HERE!! told me 2 days before arriving.. so hectic cleaning (n mom still said im so messy untidy clutterred etc.. ) ah well.. been here since sat.. dads leaving tom.. moms leaving next wed?!

oh.. got my pr!! and got a part time job!! =) alls good.. miss my boy abit tho! =P

~The Boy~

but on the other hand.. (oh.. i think u should read the entry below before this one).. i'm pretty happy where my r/s with the boy is going.. admittedly this is my first 'adult' (ie: not teen) love but.. i don't know.. being so devastedly (ok maybe i exaggerate) hurt previously.. this.. now.. its like dancing to a whole new song u just discovered (ok.. now im not making sense *slaps forehead*).. but.. its.. not to get all sappy.. i dunno.. the way he looks at me? the way i just feel loved? its been six months now..and even tho i got annoyed at him tonite for some stupid reason.. i am content.. at one pt of time.. i was kinda holding my breath coz i dint beliff that i'll NOT screw something up or i dunno.. its my hang ups.. like.. i guess 'baggage'?? buttttt.. i've decided that i was just being silly and i should just enjoy the now as it is and make sure nothing goes wrong! not if i can help it!! (okay.. this post doesent reallie make any sense so pls ignore.. maybe i without realising i decided to write something abt him coz i was annoyed and being difficult just now)
p/s.. as i was just typing the last sentence.. the subject himself decides to wake up and wonder why im not asleep!!

~Friends~

I sometimes wonder whether i've let my life revolve too much around my relationship.. not that i think theres anything wrong with it.. if its kept at a HEALTHY level.. but since we spend so much time together.. i wonder whether i've been neglecting my friends.. well.. some of them at least.. the core group thats still here i see pretty often (almost every other day).. cept lainey who's been busy with skool.. but i think its been awhile since i've caught up with friends overseas.. i guess the main reason (excuse) would be that i spend almost all of the afternoon online looking for jobs.. that at night i dont reallie wanna look at the comp anymore.. and as i've been sleeping pretty early nowadays.. thanks to the boy.. i kinda miss everyone back home that comes online ard 11ish mal/sg time.. and thats abt 1 ish.. where i'll be in bed.. and when i do come online in the eve/night.. no one seems to be on.. *wrinkles nose*

to my defense.. i've offered to call some frens.. but wrong timing etc.. and.. its not like i dont wanna call home (family) more often.. its just that the 'have u found a job qs' is begining to wear me down.. i mean.. i know that they only ask coz they care.. but.. the 'invisible' pressure is there.. okay la.. maybe not invisible since they were bugging me to work in accenture while i apply for a PR.. (hence start working immediately after i finished in march).. and since i've yet to receive any job offers.. begining to feel quite inedequate.. to put it mildly.. okay.. shall stop talking abt that.. got abit distracted..

anyway.. point being.. how do u tell if u are getting out of sync with ur frens? or losing touch? and well.. to be fair.. my msn is alwiz on and i've tried to answer any msgs that pop up when im not at the comp and so its not terribly hard to get in contact with me.. but.. i dunno.. i dont feel the need to be in contact all the time.. unless something is up.. (and nothing terribly exciting is happening here) but i dont think everyone shares the same opinion.. hence.. if u think i've been distant/losing touch.. LEMME KNOW!

~Birthday Wishes~

birthday shouts go out to Jeremy (2nd) Sheep (4th) Yish (6th) and some other ppl whom i doubt will ever visit my blog.. hahahaha.. *hugz*

~The Disgruntled Jobseeker: Part III~

The days are shorter and the skies overcast.. raindrops go pitter patter against the windows.. the wind howls thru the barely open doors.. all hail the imminent arrival of Winter..

yeap.. autumn has come and gone.. seriously is it just me or are the days whizzing by? how are we supposed to savour our youth when it seems to pass us by within a blink of an eye?! *HUMPH!* i'm not even sure whether i've blogged abt this before.. cant remember .. but i reallie cant beliff its june!! and i'm another year older.. and yunnie has already been back for 6 mths.. and i still miss her.. and all others who arent in sydney.. (ok.. not ALL.. unmentionable should stay unmentioned!) ah well.. i still havent been offerred a job.. *sniff sniff* been pretty lazy over the last week.. jaded maybe.. getting a lil worried too.. everytime someone from home calls.. its the same question.. have u got a job.. and alwiz the same answer.. nope.. any interviews? not reallie.. god i feel abit useless now! weather aint helping either!

ah well.. i will i will i will persevere.. (not sure whether i spelt that right but too lazy to check).. besides the dreary subject of job seeking.. life has been good.. watched quite a few movies.. dont worry not many spoilers ahead.. inside man: very good.. da vinci: movie made apparently little details with lotsa holes.. x-men: damn movie dint follow the story line damn dissappointing! american dreamz: pretty funny and entertaining..

spent some time (out of my vast amt of free time) catching up with frens.. which have been great.. its good to know that with some frens u dont have to be in contact frequently, yet the frenship stays pretty much intact.. =)

oh.. the boy bought me a beauty for my bday.. 19' samsung monitor! nice nice.. quite a few ppl have been commenting on my laupek dinosaur of a monitor and the fact that it doesent fit properly on my new table.. and boy was the no 1 supporter to get a new monitor.. so i asked ard and got a good deal thru ruebz.. =) afterwards.. i went to get a new mouse and keyboard (nope.. dint wanna spend on wireless!) and so my computer has been totally overhauled!!

okay.. time for some silly icons i found that makes me feel like DANCING!!. =)