~The one about the Exes~

Whats the normal protocol with exes? do you remain friends? Acquaintances? Strangers with a past? Wat happens usually? I mean.. I don't have much experience in that aspect.. grand total of 3 to speak of.. and 1 of them barely counts.. am now friends with the other (I know you r reading this TJ.. we are friends now aren't we? *raised eyebrow*) and.. so.. that leaves one more.. which.. I believe now remains as strangers with a past.. its sad.. *shakes head*.. I guess it was partly my fault in the past as maybe I wanted more and he couldn’t so he avoided me.. but now that he knows I’m happily attached (ran into him one day and he had the audacity to ask me after on msn how come I dint tell him I have a bf.. like hello!! As if YOU tell me anything at all?!) anyway.. another story that one..

Anyway.. I don’t even know why im ranting.. maybe coz I’m feeling a lil melancholy that someone I felt so strongly for in the past can be so blasé about trying to maintain a friendship.. I’ve given up on certain ppl through the hard way.. but maybe I expected too much.. but it does smart to know that you mean so little to someone who meant so much to you once.

gnarls barkley is playing on repeat atm.. it makes me feel like dancing!!!!!

*nods head to music*

and.. now i've forgotten wat i wanted to blog abt! omg.. talk about goldfish memory!!

seriously.. i can.not.remember!!

ferget it.. i wont rememeber..

weather is getting pretty hot!! its getting hot in here!! (not even sure whether thats the correct lyrics or i just made it up.. )

~The Tired and Hungry Blogger~

omg im so hungry.. its friday afternoon.. after my second week of full time work.. hahaha.. i'm hungry n tired coz been busy busy day at work and driving ard alot today.. i cant imagine working back home n having to drive down to kl everyday! i think my temper would be very short! *wrinkles nose*

anyway.. i totally forgot wat i wanted to blog abt now that i've finally sat my fat arse down n loaded the page.. hahaha.. ah well.. another one of those senseless, long-winded, confusing entries.. (wat else is new huh?!) hahaha..

i'm not going back at the end of the year.. thats for all those who are expecting me to.. weddings been postponed and well.. anyway i'll go back before march coz my tix expires then.. i do miss home.. i do miss everyone i care abt back home.. but i know my life would be so different if i was back home.. for one i would have a proper job! well at least im pretty sure i would! n i would be slave driven.. ahah.. and.. well.. wont have the boy would i?! hmm.. so scary how some decisions can change the course of your life!! in my frustration with looking for jobs here i wonder whether i made the right decision but.. ah well.. i thinkt hat if i had to choose between the boy and working 9-8 everyday.. i definately pick the boy anytime! hahahaha.. hopefully.. i will get a proper job soon so i can be have both the boy and working 9-8.. *rolls eyes*.a. ahhaha..

i'm reallie not making much sense am i?! ah well.. oh.. been watching quite a few horror/scary movies recently.. silent hill is pretty good.. its.. eerie.. and.. well.. eerie.. hahaha..its loosely based on the games.. well.. they do stay quite true to it .. but kinda meshed it up abit.. the hills have eyes is another one thats pretty good.. its.. intense.. (is that the right way to spell it? too lazy to check).. its abt.. mutated humans baiting n terrorizing families travelling across the desert in US.. sounds stupid.. but watch it! hahaha.. wat else.. oh.. the dawn of the dead and the land of the dead.. i think the latter is a remake of an old classic.. but anyway.. both alright zombie movies.. but watch silent hill and hills have eyes!!

okie.. im going to stop typing n go pester them to hurry up so i can eat and be rational again(as if rite?)

~Of Nieces Whom Grow Up w/o You Noticing~

Sheep and i discovered some of our nieces' (cousin's children) blog.. and.. its just amazing.. its like i blinked and now one of them is going to foundation.. and partying much more than i ever did yet still doing well! but anyway.. i was reading min's (the oldest) blog.. and.. it just struck me that it somehow read like my blog.. and sheep actually mentioned it to me too.. maybe its the emo entries she writes.. maybe its the way she writes.. not the colour of coz.. haha.. but.. i dont know.. its strange.. i felt like i could have written some of it!

the other two are still in school.. so not much to connect to.. but.. makes me feel old.. like im the old auntie that should stop blogging (not that im doing much of it nowadays!) hahaha.. i kinda feel alil bad that i have'nt been calling/bringing min out much.. but.. shes got a 10pm curfew that is simply impossible to keep coz all of us dont usually have dinner till like 830 anyway! but ah well.. might ask her if she wants to go clubbing with us.. omg.. im taking my niece to a club! *faints*

~Things About Yourself You Could Live w/o~

having someone tell you your faults is never pretty.. especially when you kinda know its true.. but one can only learn right?! and its good that someone cares enough to point out what they believe could be improved.. thats wat i think at least.. but sometimes i cant help it.. what im referring to.. for those who are just shaking their heads at my round-a-bout approach to things as usual.. is.. my tendency to be a little abrupt (or rude if we are being mean to lyn) when explaining things or trying to get ppl to see my point.. esp to certain ppl.. and i.. well.. half the time its coz i am repeating myself.. (as in i've told them before, maybe a few times) and sometiems coz i feel they arent paying attention.. but i know thats no excuse or reason to be rude to anyone.. but.. i reckon.. or i blame the fact (ok.. maybe not fact.. but at least i believe so!) that i'm pretty quick to catch things.. so i imagine that everyone else is like that.. and.. im impatient! oh no.. i dont wanna be impatient! *wrinkles nose*.. but we'll now that im aware of it (or rather been made aware).. im going to try.. (being the keyword) to improve.. and be more patient.. esp with mom coz.. even tho sometimes have to tell things to her like 5 times before she registers.. shes my MOM.. and to think of the amt of agony she most prob had to go thru while raising me.. (just imagine a little hyper lyn running around asking wat everything was 5 times).. i more than owe it to her.. and coz I LOVE MY MARMEEEE.. =)